Sometimes it all feels like a dream.

不知一切终究是幻觉还是现实.

We want to believe, but it's just too surreal.

当初美好遮过了一切丑陋.

Is this a test? Is this a game?

若是考验,还是游戏,哪过关了吗?

It can be so hard, so frustrating at times.

可是我知道,到最后,我们还是会成长.

Only in chaos, can order exist.

经历过风雨,才能证实它的真.

Are you wiling to等待这混乱后的安宁?

我在做什么?

这一年里面,

我到底在做么?

啊!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

迷失了自己,

连自己的朋友都忘了该怎么去关怀.

何时?

我何时变得这么糟的?

我何时变得这么讨人厌???

为什么?

为什么会这样??

为什么….

真的很想撞墙!!!!

把墙壁都给撞下!!!!

AAAAAAAAARGHH!!!!!!

热泪如雨般的落下那眼眶.

到最后,

还是哭了.

哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈.

最近真的好累好累….

要早起, 去上课.

上完课, 去店帮忙.

回到家, 赶功课.

哈哈哈哈,

时间有够充足的jek.

最近又有一些东西缠着…

哗…

喂…

我不是机器人,

也不是超人.

我会痛,

我也会累.

我只不过要求那一点点的体谅,

这么难吗?

哈哈哈哈哈…

有人问过我,

我会流泪的吗?

我说, 泪流,也不是在你面前啦.

是咯,

在你们面前,

只能装的一切都不在乎,

一切都无所谓.

哈哈哈,

或许这样说,

有点太敷衍自己, 敷衍你们了.

嗯,

对,

我是麻木了.

对一切麻木了.

哈哈哈哈哈哈.

此时,

泪也流不出.

Huh?

Is all I can say.

What,

Do you want from me?

And it's gone.

My 19^th year in existence officially starts today.

It was, really, really, really, really unexpected.

And I was really, really, really knocked off my feet.

But still, I will cherish those moments, till the end of time.

白痴! X ]

Yesterday, was special.

It was the first time I celebrated my birthday with this band of college friends.

It was just a normal lunch at Tony Rama's,

But I really do appreciate all of you guys taking time off to celebrate with us on our birthday eves.

Li Jun, Leonard, Eugene, Cann, Rynn, Meng Yao, Zacque, Cristin and Brian. This bangla tree really appreciates it!! X ]

And thanks a lot for the presents too, Cristin and Brian!

I'll use it everyday, until you guys get tired of it, hahaha…

Though, there's just one thing I want to say about yesterday.

Sorry!!

Actually, I really, really don't like being treated to a meal by anyone.

It makes me feel really uncomfortable, and I ordered something quite expensive too.

So, please forgive me, for making you bear the burden of my meal…

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Today, is special.

Today marks my birth date.

19 years ago, I was still flailing around in some nurses arms, wailing like a how a baby should.

19 years on from that moment, has anything changed?

Hahahaha.

Thanks to Facebook, most of last night was spent on replying all those birthday wishes and greetings.

Thank you, all!!! For remembering, for the wishing, and for the time you spent on that one little shoutout.

I deeply appreciate every single one of them! = ]

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And you, dumb dumb thing!

Your present really got me off by surprise nehs….

Hahahaha, I was so touched I could almost cry! xP

I didn't lah, of courses, better luck next year! Hehehe.

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That's all for now.

Take care you'all.

It's a happy day. = ]